:: Poetry ::

:: Wednesday, March 24, 2004 ::

A broken façade,
empty shades of charcoal painting my horizon
Rainbow smiles from beneath the dust.
hatred penetrating
the cold shield of ice
like white hot knives jabbing into my side

Your eyes,
glazed and unblinking.
Stare through the haze,
hypnotizing my mind.
Paralyzing.

I can’t love.
A heart frozen-
beaten behind countless sorrows
Painful regression

Shadowing demons behind every corner
Nothing is sacred, nothing is safe.
The tedium is unbreakable—unyielding
The sickness spreads through my body, my mind
Apathy, infecting every atom, every particle, every cell.
I have no will to move, no will to breathe.
Forcing my steps, my feet in a line,
leaving trails of dust behind me.

Where have I been?
Why would you ask?
Rhetoric idiosyncrasies, unanswerable riddles
Demonic presence- killing me [where has my mind gone?]
Circling, whirling, and twirling, round and round like a merry-go-round
I’m going to be sick.

Spill my guts to you, don’t look back
Leave them lying on the floor, entrails encircling my heart
Blood pooling from my lifeless body.
Skin melted from my flesh, hatred seething
Rainbow smiles

An empty façade, a broken trail.
The roller coaster is broken,
the track ends in the loop-de-loop,
and we all fall down

The incoherent babblings of a madwoman. And I thought I was the poet?
Who am I kidding.

:: sydinator 3:14 PM [+] ::
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NEVER FORGET.

remember me
though your thoughts of me
are plagued with hatred and venom
remember me
though you never want to speak to me again
never forget the times we shared
never forget the tears we cried
never forget

if i were to leave here tomorrow
would you remember me?
would you cry?
would you care?
i carried you, you carried me
through the storm
through the pain
through the emptiness
we were together through everything
through hell.

i don't know where to go
i don't know what i know
i don't know how to say
i'm sorry

i just want to say
remember me
remember me
even though your love has grown cold
remember me
remember us
i love you sister
and my love will never fade.

:: sydinator 3:10 PM [+] ::
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